21/07/2012 - A Small Reminder

Watched Bruce Wayne
Too many mixed feelings

Wish to remember the moment, when tears dropped.

06/07/2012 - Studying abroad

Don't know why, was originally planning to post on facebook, but came back here, I like being a little bit secured.

Studying abroad is a good exploration to me.

Taiwan which shares greatly same cultural life as a Chinese, yet I soon learn about the differences among ethnic groups in Chinese. In Malaysia there are Hokien, Cantonese, Hakka and etc., but all the cultures have mixed so thoroughly until I was thinking it is "Chinese Culture". The first cultural shock for me in Taiwan is the moon cake, they are not eating the moon cake that I have been eating all the time, but the 嫁女餅 that we receive when someone’s getting married instead. They are so modernized and having BBQ anywhere on moon cake festival, that’s not their tradition but the current trend.You will learn that how lousy is our GOVN when Malaysia is tooooo small for them to keep their eyes open, should be for the entire world too I guess. They will even misunderstand you as Malay (due to 'MALAY'sia), but surprisingly all people will reply "I'm a Malaysia Chinese”, how patriotic!! Maybe Malaysia should do something when promoting the country xD. Yet, since Singapore has officially announced so many things BELONG to them (even for some I think it shouldn't be at all? I dont mind SHARING but don't OWN it) and our GOVN is doing nothing at all other than exploting only, it really left nothing to Malaysian, poor thing.

For me, yeah maybe it’s only me sadly, studying in Taiwan is not friendly to me at all. They use Mandarin as the speaking medium, A TOTALLLY MANDARIN method, when those scientific things show up as “Mandarin” form, I’m dead. Complaining or requesting is NOT USEFUL at all. The system is so examination type with almost no assignment, you may have some dull reports and lame reflection that is always come with a fixed formula of doing it, which is so uninteresting at all, and hence making you don’t know what the heck are you learning or other than inflexible knowledge from lecturer’s note or textbook. The only few assignment I have done so far (just a very, very few) extend my knowledge a lot although I was just largely copying and arranging from net.

Since the textbook and note are mostly fully in English, you will be like “^$!#%$@#^%@#$@!” when the paper comes as Mandarin but you can only silently do it and murmur tons of foul language (even you have requested, it ends up coming as Mandarin, that is why you will be gone mad). I have experienced doing “English subjective answer” on objective blackening paper and “on call with lecturer for immediate translation with a cellphone” in examination hall, for other situation the lecturer is so GAY and I failed to find any assistance, and then my exam was dead for that part, gosh. For subjective questions they’re always allowing Mandarin answer but I will be the freak that using English all the time, yet the one correcting it would be the lab assistant (postgraduate students? oO) and I had experienced some contradictions and problems of their English correction, and became an innocent victim.

Taiwanese, are, incredibly ACTIVE in activities, which makes my fellow Malaysian’s always getting jealous when seeing the photos, I would say, that is also incredibly TIRED as you may need to contribute numerous nights of sleep, but you will always take part if you fail to give up socialization, like me. The activities are cute, or to be frankly, naïve. Honestly but no offence, they’re like living fewer worries around the world and are more concentrating at entertainment. Thence, the activities are mostly regarding amusement, socialization with freshmen. The way of the activities organized makes you need to “make yourself naïve” as well to get involve fast and easy. I found myself stupid for being so naïve over there but you can feel the happiness for being naïve sometimes. That is why there are actually many people keep joining these activities, whereas I actually, am tired, but need to pass down the love that I have gained.

Food? Each places has its own specification & advantage, unnecessary to compare, yet overall I still love Malaysian’s ultimate mixed culture food, but ways UNHEALTHIER (and maybe unsafer too) compares to Taiwanese food. Yet for beverage, it’s like a big gap between the creativity, there is a variety of cool stuff in Malaysian but not much youngsters has the heart to improve and develope it, the competition for their beverage business is so big force them to compete with unanticipated originality, making it walking around the world nowadays.

I have been going around but not many places yet! Travel is my incoming quest.

26/5/2012 - Mirror

經過了很久的時間
還是這裡傾訴抽象的心情最舒服

看到YH他冷靜成這樣，有種感觸
看到CM他痛苦成這樣，也有種感觸


心臟破碎的感覺是怎樣


依靠著這根精神的支柱
但他們也支撐得很辛苦

心臟真的要很強

我想模仿
用心努力越過這裡

鏡子，告訴我這樣對不對吧
因為我不想要再讓時間來證明了

27/04/2012 - White Lies

原來真的可以那麼地堅持

凌晨時刻，一切都解決了
原來再白痴的謊言，也是騙得到人的
她也不是笨的，我也只是混過去而已
然而人家卻依舊相信我

如果這個不是愛情就好
離別總是來臨，這不是很痛嗎
如果你能幸福的話，就到此為止吧
這是我唯一能夠做的事

我的愛只為了你
為了不讓你察覺
我費盡力氣笑著
我不想讓你痛苦
但是又討厭離開

因為這個世界上最珍貴的就是你了
所以我撒了謊，一個善意的謊言
這也是我唯一能做的事
就算心裡大喊大叫，嘴裡還是沒說出來
我不想讓你痛苦
即使我痛苦也沒關係，因為我愛你

只要我瘋了一般哭了一場就可以了
我守護下去就好了