31/03/2013 - Looking back

Making a post today is because today is 31/03/2013,
It's not merely the end of March, it indicates my 21 is approaching.

Guess years ago I really didn't expect whether what am I doing right now is appropriate
I don't know what has made the way I am thinking today
Sometime I feel glorious, sometime I feel insane

Achievement can be done by countless hardworking and unpredictable luck
while the luck could determine how much work needed to be completed
If I foresee my future prospective regarding money, I might have chosen a wrong path
Guess even until now, I am still being hesitated, about my future life
This path is the best for me to modify it as my wish in future
Yet, I would afraid.

Don't you think that every aspiration comes with risk?
What if, at the end it fails?

I have numerous plans for it
Even a few for my worst condition
Yet I can live well, just for me
When responsibility comes, we need to think for others.

Age grows, people around you will look high upon you as well
My shoulder tells me that I have to do for something secured

Life is purposeless without joys
I have reluctantly enjoy slothful life
Guess I need to share the joy to people around me
From now on

22/03/2013 - Judgement

Today I insisted very hard at an argument, very hard.

The person is the one who once I've sworn to protect, to care at least

Yet this conflict hurt us very badly

It even ruins my entire old plan to maintain everything

My current mind is being contradicted

I always use my persistence to prove something, but most of the time it doesn't worth for it at all

What if I just being easygoing 

Obliging and amiable

Just let it be, friendship is the more important thing compare to that tiny crap

Sometimes I am just being stupid I guess, lost all my rationality

Just to challenge, and so being able to figure out one's acceptance or one's mentality

It doesn't worth destroying

This is why I judge myself

Maybe I should have learn it long time ago, I shouldn't insist on changing others, but change if they are willing to, it reminds me again.

Or else it's like two stones crash together for stupid reason.

What if I just being easygoing 

Obliging and amiable

?

Okay, guess I need more