31/12/2010 - This Is The End

I really hate it
I really hate when I am denied in such way

Family love? Please!
I know nothing about it!
I only know how to give it to them
But I'm really feeling nth, them too maybe

Please, I've been living under jealousy for years
Envying friends' parents is my favourite activity

But I comment nothing
Because I know it's not the end yet

I nvr request alot from you
But how could you just deny my dream like this?

How much you know about me?
What course is that?
What is my results?

You know nth
I don't even think that you know when is my exams
I think what you only know is when is your TRAVELS

Let you write an essay about me, try it
What can you write other than your wrong thought to me?
Stating how useless I am is your expertise
But unfortunately, they are just some big mistakes
Which I'm too lazy to correct you

How do you write the word 'proud'?
I don't the heck know
I dislike this very much
And I am already tired crying because of this

Please, if you grant me this ending
I know you won't regret about this
You will think that you've made a wise move
But it ends up carving inside my heart
Believe it, you'll also regret about it

My life, my story
Endlessly
I'm fighting

23/11/2010 - Fool

傻瓜是什么
自作自受

我知道自己的感觉在哪里
可是
对不起，我实在无法面对
因为恐惧吞噬了我

所以我一步都没走过
我能做的
就是看着她一步一步地远离我

我真傻
我竟然选择忘记
真可悲

向别人说我忘记了
简直就是个谎言
即使多么难受
我的感觉还是一样

对不起K1317，杰仪
对我来说忘记真的很难
时间一过就这么多年
她仍然能在我心中徘徊

我仍然爱你
我还是想你
看着你的照片
我有时会傻笑

我从来没有停止爱你
我对你的感情从来没有改变
不，我的心还在不断增加喜欢我对你的爱
我只是尽量保持冷静
不断地回想当我们在一起的时刻

不知道为什么
总会有人认为我喜欢上谁了
以为我终于放下了
我也想啊，大人K5464
其实我看
我根本没换过对象

其实不是我不想
只是很多时候勉强不来
我除了在“忘记”，也在等待
就如K1317所说的
要来则来

可是那个M757却说我的动作
是喜欢上那个她了
是吗？
我自己也无法解读自己的身体语言

我很想要一个晚上
是能安眠入睡
而不是想来想去
拖到不用睡

8/11/2010 - Choices

Choices, we always have to choose in our life.
Yet, we dread regretting.

That is why we always meticulously make our decision.
Our mind can't fill with the pain of that.

Deciding carefully
think 10 times before the action
It sounds so good
But it sounds terrible for me

For me
It would be a terrible thing to do ever
Especially when the choice is only two

Now
I have stopped a taxi for her
And she?
She could be waiting for my words

But
I'm really a coward
I’m passing through quickly when I meet her every time
But I pretended I'm so fine when we are talking

这全部都是谎言

Why
Because I can read the fear
The fear of future
I'm afraid that I will repeat the scenes that have happened to me

I couldn't blame for the scenes that have happened to me
All I can do is, prevention.

I don't know if another 1 is waiting for my words too
Because her friend had dropped a hint
But for this, I have another fear too!

Maybe what I can do is pray for her
也许这像一个傻瓜
但我都不在乎
在我的心底只有你

30/08/2010 - The Unrevealed Reasons

Finally Back, after a period of time
The war is on
I shouldn't pay much time here

Yet,
The unrevealed reasons
have made known tonight

Why did I quit DotA?
I had thought that it was because of
The shutdown of Blue Server

Soon I understood
I could actually resume everything through GG
But I stopped again
Because of the players' attitude

I have returned to GG recently
And now, I think it is the time to stop
I think I still can't bear that attitude
It's no longer a patience problem

What do I hate so much about them?
Garena is made by a very complex community actually
Even much more than BS

From young to old
From childish to mature
From idiot to genius
From bad to nice

We can actually learn much in there actually
Not only learning how to deal with different kind of people
But also teamwork, cooperate with someone who is new to you
With different characters as well

Its a good place to learn
But I guess I'm enough with it
Striving forward
is what I have to do now

Yet,
This is not only the reason why I'm writing
Another reason is revealed today
The Tales of The Little Mushroom
And I don't even know what to do ><
What answer should I give

p/s: Another Happy Birthday to my beloved Malaysia, 又爱又恨~

22/05/2010 - Chinese Culture & History

Every time when I see any news
About Korea challenging Chinese Culture or History
I really feel sad

They always state that they come from "X" place(高丽）
The "X" place（在中国东北部） is where the culture mostly came from
Then they admit it as theirs?

Haha..

端午节
It was finished in a stupid manner
China lost it, Korea got it
Whose fault?
It's we chinese ourselves
We never appreciate what we have
Even treat it like a NORMAL day

While others treat it like a treasure
Haha..

Korea are very good
They say Chinese word was created by their ancestor
And upon a what bla-bla issue
They use "back" the Korean word

I wonder what make they CHANGE it huh?
Shouldn't u guys use wat u created?
But changed it to squares and circles?

They focus on this point
Keep challenging Chinese
About Chinese word, 甲骨文....
Even 孔子!!
Everything has become theirs

Haha..

I don't want to comment too much
I studied history
I read and scan, even analyse
That is really ridiculous

If 端午节 is Korea's
Why 屈原's story was happened in China?
If you say 屈原 was a Korean too
Then I wonder why so many 赋词 are written in Chinese
But not Korean word? I tot he loved his "country"

甲骨文 was created by Korean
Because you guys say the 东北 human = u guys (I'm not sure about this statement)
And go on
商朝 = u guys too
Then I really wonder
Why was u guys nvr use 甲骨 after u guys retreated (defeated by 周）
Because you guys created papers and use it?
Haha!! Why nowadays no even a Korean has a first name 蔡

If 孔子 was a Korean too
Why he emphasize 周朝礼仪 so much?
You guys know who is 子产？
He can be considered as 孔子 master
Why is he abandoned in your proof?
And why 孔子 emphasize 周朝礼仪 but not 商朝礼仪
I tot u guys say 商朝 = u guys, and u guys were defeated by 周？
He was a betrayer of your country?
Funny

Korea got many first name like Lee and Kim
So all the Lees and Kims in the world
Was Korean?

You guys wanna change 中医 to 韩医
Because you guys 针灸 are pro-er?
You guys say 围棋.... stuff was created by your ancestor
Because you guys are pro-er in that nowadays?

There are too much!!
I got no time to explain them 1 by 1

If Korean say the bla bla thing is theirs
Because the bla bla thing came from "X" place
"X" place is a place in China right
Why can't China people say Korea is theirs too
Please! We Chinese got many lesson from ancestor
得寸进尺、适可而止、
量腹而食，度身而衣!!

Well we can blame on Korean for this
But I think we Chinese should blame ourselves more
We failed to protect our own culture
We failed to appreciate our own culture
We failed to concern about our own culture

How many of you clear about our history
Or appreciate them?
Most of us think it is OUTDATED or watever crap stuff
While others think it is a treasure

Do watever u want
Just Don't regret when one day you are announced that
You are no longer a Chinese but a Korean

27/04/2010 - Ambush of K5464

I got a surprise from K5464, Dae Kae Jing today
Altho it was made due to my request(seems like)
But the words
Is actually what I've waited for

Dae Kae Jing
She doesn't act as any special character in my life
But I'm sure that will make you special
You are not a specific one in a specific area
But you are mostly average involved in most area
Haha, 玄 leh, try to understand it la
Since, we will never explain why is it "special"

Maybe she could easily forget someone
I'm not sure(I know she wouldn't)
But I won't forget someone easily
Just like how I remember S3311, See Min

There's uncertainty in the future

Haha, maybe I'm defeated by the fate
Since I have met many ppl who forget me
But I know you are different
Even our part is separated

I will eventually stop you in the street if I see you
And go for a drink
In future of course
We will never flip our eyes and ignore each other right

Well I shouldn't go too far
I will stop around here
What I want to say is
As a friend, we will never explain why shall we do that
My mind can feel it
Just like why u make the card for me
Isn't it?

There are many things we will never do it right?

今日
我非常感谢大凯晶大人
感动到要哭前兆
故特post来记住这件事情

26/04/2010 - Extinction

I hate to tell
I hate to show the deepest part in my heart
I hate misunderstanding

Sometimes
I'm fear of myself
But sometimes,
I feel proud
Who the heck am I

I don't know
But what I know about myself is
I'm abnormal
Haha, could be the only 1 who is
Facing extinction tho

Why I will cry
When I'm looking at the sky
I don't know

Am I feeling sad for my life?
My destiny?
I tried to tell myself
It's fated
But I failed to persuade myself

It seems so stupid
If I'm telling myself
That the environment really promoted me

I'm so lonely sometimes
Like facing extinction
I can bear most thing
Unlike usual man

Just like everyone thinks
孔子is very 贤
While behind the truth
It is just so advertising
I really wonder if they know
Who is 子产
Or appreciate 老子？

Companion?
Yea I think I have some now
And yet I'm still acting kinda weird
I, myself also don't know
I have some "darkness" field
Nobody will know it

I am still doing like
Haha, like GF in FF8
These Guardian Force
I really don't know how to tell
Just
Protecting people around me
I can only feel calm after doing it

Alright, I still can go on
There are many reasons
I never forget my dreams
Like TVXQ did(I'm waiting miracle)
Many things to protect
Just go on

1/4/2101 - Thanks to

今天没什么特别
却也不完全普通

自相矛盾？

没错
一矛盾就5年
首先先谢谢当年和我一起支持神起的朋友
你的“隐形礼物”，有点开解了我
希望你自己看到时知道是你自己啦

当然，一次过“补完”13年的生日快乐也不简单
谢谢你思敏
总算没白认识，哈哈

先讲讲贪方便的干姐们
LOL，竟然买Jusco的“pang+leng+zheng”Cake
不过也是谢谢，很有新意
和心意

然后是老友们
JL的‘礼物’我有LOL到
不过谢谢
KEN的我更LOL
不过你的心意我就收下
TJ难得来祝贺祝贺
自然是回味无穷

大人采用无物胜有物的方法
也很特别啦哈哈
谢谢
Elaine Gan 也谢谢你啊
酱夜来“ei”我

在Australia的几位友人
Vikki、Eevin、zhenhong、Jiayi（?）
谢谢
Vikki的SMS
老远send来是感动下的
不过你还欠我东西

还有3义的挚友们
MY,JY,PY和JY
我真的很谢谢你们
而且并非是一两个字可表达的

还有很多很多人
Jason，神，SL,小丸子，WeiBing，JR......
讲不完了
看我越讲越简介就知道
我在被人催我关机

总之
很谢谢你们
无论是通过FB，MSN，SMS，还是嘴巴
全都收到,谢谢了。

19/2/2010 - Future

我没有特有的喜好
我没有特强的科目

我引以自豪的优点却是多么冒险
我想做的东西竟然是多么的低薪

要我发挥我的优点也可以
只要有人看中我就可以了


问题是会有多少个？


自立一家，又怕会失败
毕竟我没有财产去乱拚

笑，慢慢等待机会？
燕雀安知鸿鹄之志哉

想读一个安全又符合心意的
竟然那么低薪

低薪自然就给父母担心
少了他们的支持
自然不成立

自己的命运自己掌握？
这个并不是受约束的人说得出的

22/1/2010 - Tonight

Tonight, the sky is bright
Filled with light
I raise my hand, trying to touch the sky
It sounds impossible, as the star is high

But one day, I will fly up high
And touch the sky

Maybe I'm having a hard time
Yet I have the right
To write, to try
As my dream is right

12/1/2010 - The Truth of Sejarah Revealed

Label:  EL-111-14-717

Title  : Interesting!! U should read if u r a MALAYSIAN!!‏
From: C0333

Time : 12/1/2010, 6:00pm


The Truth Revealed (with evidence)!

In June 1998, the government of Malaysia had hired a team of experts from all over the world to be gathered here in Malaysia for a research project to compliment the history studies that we undertook in our secondary school.

The objective of the research is simply:

1. To find proof and evidence that show the Malays were the origins of Malaysia and they were the first race and religion that landed their feet in Malaysia .

2. To further strengthen their claims, first they need to find the graveyard of the Hang Tuah, Hang Jebat, Hang Lekiu and others.. to show the existence of their pioneers.

3. The Batu Bersurat in Terengganu, reveals that the islamic religion has landed in Malaysia for more than a hundred years ago which further strengthen their claims!

BEWARE & OPEN YOUR EYES!!! Go and ask your brother, sister, niece, nephew etc. Since the year 1999 (if i'm not mistaken) or year 2000, do they study about HANG TUAH anymore?

Why is that popular subject GONE? Missing in action? or evidence reveals something else that caused the government to stop the syllabus and HIDE the TRUTH?

Here are the Evidences of the findings by the team of scientists, archaeologist, historian and other technical staff from the United States , United Kingdom , Germany , Canada , Yemen & Russia.

The evidence are:

The First Evidence:

They finally found the graveyard of Hang Tuah, Hang Jebat and others, their skeletons had been analized and samples of DNA taken with the results showing: Hang Tuah, Hang Jebat, Hang Lekiu and mates were NOT MALAY!!! They were CHINESE origins (islamic) from China !!!

Why were they here in Malacca? If you go back in history, you would know that they were on a mission to protect the UNGRATEFUL MALAY Sultanate from the frequent attacks by the Kingdom of SIAM ( Thailand ).

So Hang Tuah was not a Malay hero! They were the protectors of the useless and ungrateful Parameswara (who was from INDONESIA ) who landed in Malacca and claimed that the land belonged to him!

Hang Tuah and friends were all from China , they were being assigned to the Malacca Sultanate because Parameswara requested the Ming Dynasty Emperor for protection! Hence, the rich historical heritage of the Babas & Nyonyas were being closely linked to the Seven Voyages to the Western Oceanby Admiral Zheng He who incidentally was a Chinese Muslim himself!

That's why the Hang Tuah series of history is MISSING from the Malaysian SEJARAH today!

Note : Remember Princess Hang Li Poh ? - All surname 'HANG'

Second Evidence:

The researchers hired by the government found the oldest tombstones (graveyard) in Kelantan in year 2000. Suprisingly, the tombstones were at least 900 years old! Older than the so-called Batu Bersurat. And the interesting thing was that they all belonged to the CHINESE!

Being landed first in Malacca doesn't mean Malay is the first in Malaysia because during that time, the road was too long or undeveloped for them to reach or see the other side of the coast where the Chinese had landed much earlier. If you want the hard evidence of what the truth of the Research reveals, please write to The Federal Association of Archaeology & Research of Michigan , USA .

This is a good reason to remind the Bumiputras NOT to ask the Chinese or Indians to go back to their Motherlands because the evidence had shown that Malays were NOT the original people of Malaysia ! The Truth Revealed (with evidence) and anthropologists have yet to ascertain if there was indeed a Malay race!

Opinion: The objectives for all students to study Sejarah is very clear to everyone, yet we still have to be quiet and accept the brainwash, how sad. No offence, correct me if I'm wrong.

10/1/2010 - Fate Another

To celebrate the 10th post
I decide to open the blog to the public
The time is after msn with K5464.

I go to Education Fair at KLCC today
My result is: Yes, IMU is the only U
Has the degree course I want in Malaysia
Facts again

I wonder
If I use that much money for IMU
Why don't I just go to Adelaide?

Money says everything
IMU is expensive for me but
I can get a loan from PTPTN
Adelaide is expensive for me
I have not found any loan
But it is a good U for me

Fate, heh
I wonder if my parents will pay for it
This makes me recall something
When I was a child,
My father came and asked me to lend him RM100
I lent without asking anything
He was grateful
He said,
"When I'm old,"
"I will use all the money from my EPF to support your studies."
That time I was kinda touched.

Now
They have to pay for my sister studies first
She "hopes" she can study in Japan
With scholarship
If they pay for her
Like all the time
I wonder, what is left for me?

In fact
I should not worry about financial matter first
To get in the university in Adelaide
I need 5 A1
Language studies
And the topic General Paper are not included
It is so damn hard

But
I can't stop worrying about money
Complicated mind

9/1/2010 - Sometimes

Sometime I think I'm different
But soon i find out I'm nothing

Sometime I think it will work
But it never follows my ideal thought

Sometime I think it is because of wisdom
But luck seems more likely to be the factor

Sometime I'm proud of myself
But I'm always disappointed

Sometime I think they will understand
But the fact tells me I'm wrong

Sometime I believe in fate
But I'm always trying to disobey it

Sometime I think I can endure everything
Yet I'm confused by facts

8/1/2010 - Dreamer

I'm a dreamer
Full of dreams about life
That is why
I'm always daydreaming

Yet what I dream at night would be sincere
I'm blurred
I don't know whether am I'm right

I'm dreaming all the time
I hope I can find the genuineness of me

I thought I find it last time
I has followed the path I believe till now

But it is not ideal like what I have thought
I end up like calculating wrong how many cloud in the sky.

Sometime, being naive is so beautiful
Although I have just get mad on someone who is naive
Even she doesn't know what am I mad for
Soon I realize
She is so naive, and happy

I have been annoying of this event
For hours
I angry because she doesn't understand why am I mad
Even I have tell her why
How sad

I return back to the original dream
Thinking of what I had considered last time
And soon I find out
I'm the one who is naive too

I wonder why am I being so serious in that.

一天五杯熱水, 完全排毒!‏

現在日本的藝能界流行一種“白湯”排毒法! 日文的“湯”就是熱水, 而“白湯”就是什麼都不加的熱水! 這種療法源自於，印度的阿育吠陀(Aayurveda)。 藉由喝溫熱的水，讓身體熱起來；達到和用芝麻油按摩，讓身體熱起來同樣的效果! 由於實行起來非常簡單，每個人都做得到；也不用花錢、 因此由藝人千葉麗子推薦之後，許多藝人紛紛仿效；成為一股風潮!

先說說喝熱水具備哪些效果吧:

1.促進新陳代謝

喝熱水不僅能夠刺激腸胃蠕動，也能促進腎臟肝臟等器官的活動!維持擔任排毒重責大任，的器官的活性；讓血液能夠更輕鬆的，運輸氧氣與養分到全身；促進新陳代謝!

2.調整味覺

開始喝熱水，會感覺到溫水的甜味!慢慢的你會對於，食物 的味道越來越敏銳! 稍微吃一點就會有吃了東西的實感, 進而避免暴飲暴食!

3. 排出毒素

熱水能夠溫暖內臟器官，促進消化、讓囤積在體內的；毒素排出體外! 除了有利尿作用之外，因為體內水分的調節；更能夠改善便秘! 此外也能加速排汗, 達到良好的排毒效果!

4.賦予滿腹飽足感

和一般的水比起來， 喝熱水需要花時間；一口一口慢慢喝，因此更能夠獲得滿腹感! 在吃飯的時候，搭配食物一起喝； 更能夠增加飽足感!

5.幫助消化

經常暴飲暴食，會影響消化；並讓無法消化的食物，開始囤積在體內! 熱水可以刺激胃的蠕動，幫助消化、並幫助囤積的；老廢物質順勢排出!

6. 沉澱心情

除了身體機能的調整之外， 喝熱水也具有精神層面排毒的功效!慢慢的喝杯熱水，能夠緩衝一下；忙碌的工作消除壓力 讓你神清氣爽!

根據阿育吠陀(Aayurveda)的說法, 影響人類身體與精神健康的元素可以從風、 火、水三種元素來看! 頭痛, 肩頸酸痛,失眠, 肌膚粗糙, 便秘等都是因為火的元素失調的關係，追究原因就是身體“太冷”! 夏天經常吹冷氣, 吃冰的東西, 內外夾攻, 這時候喝熱水就是一種均衡的消化劑!


雖然喝熱水排毒非常簡單, 但也不是隨便喝喝就能達到最好的效果喔! 在喝法上還是有些講究的: 

1. 早上起床喝一杯熱水

早上起床喝一馬克杯的熱水, 水溫在不要燙口, 能夠順順喝下的溫度最好! 能夠溫熱內臟器官, 溶解體內的老廢物質, 加速排出! 讓一天有個神清氣爽的開始!

2. 一天喝1.2~1.5公升的熱水

任何東西過量都不好! 雖然喝熱 水沒有副作用, 但是以為這樣而狂飲的話, 反而會造成多餘的水分在體內囤積, 新陳代謝惡化,成為寒冷體質, 進而容易肥胖! 一天1.2~1.5公升的量最適中!

3. 一次一點點慢慢喝, 不要牛飲

不要在渴的時候咕嘟咕嘟狂飲, 最好是每次半杯小口小口慢慢喝!

1~2個小時喝一杯左右的量! 不要燙口的熱水, 溫熱就可以了!

4. 入浴後水分補給

洗完澡後, 喝一杯溫水(和體溫差不多的溫水), 補充流失的水分! 這時候好不容易藉由泡澡讓身體溫熱起來, 最好避免喝冰的東西, 讓身體冷卻!

經過日本許多明星的實踐證明: 熱水排毒法能夠提升基礎代謝, 讓身體覺得輕鬆舒暢, 改善便秘,排出老廢物質, 進而達到美肌與瘦身的效果! 這種不花錢的健康 排毒法, 還不趕快試試?!

Source: Email
Addition: 一天1.2~1.5公升是指摄取

6/1/2010 - Last Letter to S1717

This is the end,
Just let the Secret lurking behind the stage.
I'm sorry for my selfishness.

Anyway,
I will not forget you, for sure.

If you need helps in the future,
I will be there.

I promise you,
In the name of the Saint.

I will be your guardian
Even you don't know that I care about you.

Take care and be healthy.